The dark corridor, today I understand, it was left that way,
dark! I never could explain myself why a corridor in the midst was left dark.
Today I do. The darkness there was after all not darker than the darkness
dwelling inside people there, or the darkness these people are living in or the
darkness many of these are going to be a part of soon and all of us someday.
Darkness, what an expression! Darkness, an expression for
sadness, madness, fear, and above all an emotion, mother to all emotions.
There is a popular saying, “without fear there is no courage.”
But how many do understand the meaning beyond the literal meaning. Well to me,
it goes like this, ”Without fear there is no courage, without courage, one can’t
be free, without freedom, there will be despair and with this despair one will
soon start fathoming the depths of darkness. He will be alone there and will be
frightened and therefore have to find courage to get out of there. Now I see
darkness as the motivating factor to find one’s own courage, though we hate
this very emotion.
Some will want to get rid of darkness as this is the only
face of darkness to them, as was to me, when I was in dark corridor for the
first time. Horror and terror of darkness was gone that day. Dark doesn’t seem
to be that dark, though it felt more like myself, I felt closer to darkness in
that bright sunny day.
Mysteriously most of us seek dark, although we detest it
consciously. A child hides in a dark corner when her mother tries to give him a
bath. Kids too try to find the darkest space, where nobody can see them, while
playing Hide and Seek. A Caravan in the desert seeks a dark oasis with dark
shadows of trees around.
Being a student of science myself, I will explain a little
about darkness. What color you imagine if I ask about the darkest color? Black!
Well black is defined as where all light gets absorbed, or you can say the
amount of absorption is significantly greater than emission, so if you think
about it there is more light contained in Black than light itself.
We come in contact with darkness
before we come in contact with light. We
come to life or light after nine months of darkness. Darkness gives life to life. Furthermore a man seeks the darkness
of a woman to procreate another 9 months of darkness. Then why darkness is so
dark, why?
I can never forget the moment, I befriended darkness and
darkness like an old friend embraced me. I cried, I shouted, I kicked and I
cursed darkness, the same darkness which let me in, in my moments of despair
and pain. However darkness did not betray me, it kept its promise to withhold
my cries within and my despair and pain disappeared in its own
darkness.
Even the greatest source of light on earth, The Sun, gives
you moments of darkness if you dare to stare it for a while. Universe
originated out of sheer darkness, and may be one day when all stars have turned
into Black holes or Neutron stars, it will be dark again, complete dark! So
dark isn’t that dark. Still we detest
the color of origin and Apocalypse.
On the contrary light
displays your tears to world, and the world in turn does its best to keep
those tears alive during the course of time and this is when light disowns you
and one start seeking a shelter with dark. However darkness forgives one each
time and holds within it as long as one wants.
I thank the destiny to put such a day in my diary of life, so
that I understand the true nature of darkness.
Love you Darkness,
Yours dark friend!
