Darkness

The dark corridor, today I understand, it was left that way, dark! I never could explain myself why a corridor in the midst was left dark. Today I do. The darkness there was after all not darker than the darkness dwelling inside people there, or the darkness these people are living in or the darkness many of these are going to be a part of soon and all of us someday.

Darkness, what an expression! Darkness, an expression for sadness, madness, fear, and above all an emotion, mother to all emotions.

There is a popular saying, “without fear there is no courage.” But how many do understand the meaning beyond the literal meaning. Well to me, it goes like this, ”Without fear there is no courage, without courage, one can’t be free, without freedom, there will be despair and with this despair one will soon start fathoming the depths of darkness. He will be alone there and will be frightened and therefore have to find courage to get out of there. Now I see darkness as the motivating factor to find one’s own courage, though we hate this very emotion. 

Some  will want to get rid of darkness as this is the only face of darkness to them, as was to me, when I was in dark corridor for the first time. Horror and terror of darkness was gone that day. Dark doesn’t seem to be that dark, though it felt more like myself, I felt closer to darkness in that bright sunny day.

Mysteriously most of us seek dark, although we detest it consciously. A child hides in a dark corner when her mother tries to give him a bath. Kids too try to find the darkest space, where nobody can see them, while playing Hide and Seek. A Caravan in the desert seeks a dark oasis with dark shadows of trees around.

Being a student of science myself, I will explain a little about darkness. What color you imagine if I ask about the darkest color? Black! Well black is defined as where all light gets absorbed, or you can say the amount of absorption is significantly greater than emission, so if you think about it there is more light contained in Black than light itself.

We come in contact with darkness before we come in contact with light. We come to life or light after nine months of darkness. Darkness gives life to life. Furthermore a man seeks the darkness of a woman to procreate another 9 months of darkness. Then why darkness is so dark, why?

I can never forget the moment, I befriended darkness and darkness like an old friend embraced me. I cried, I shouted, I kicked and I cursed darkness, the same darkness which let me in, in my moments of despair and pain. However darkness did not betray me, it kept its promise to withhold my cries within and my despair and pain disappeared in its own darkness.

Even the greatest source of light on earth, The Sun, gives you moments of darkness if you dare to stare it for a while. Universe originated out of sheer darkness, and may be one day when all stars have turned into Black holes or Neutron stars, it will be dark again, complete dark! So dark isn’t that dark. Still we detest the color of origin and Apocalypse.

On the contrary light displays your tears to world, and the world in turn does its best to keep those tears alive during the course of time and this is when light disowns you and one start seeking a shelter with dark. However darkness forgives one each time and holds within it as long as one wants.

I thank the destiny to put such a day in my diary of life, so that I understand the true nature of darkness.

Love you Darkness,

Yours dark friend!